be strong Mick; one day at a time; if there is ever anything I can do for you,  just holler dude !  If its within my power ...it's done

LANCER wrote on 09/01/10 at 13:48:29:

Thanks Lancer very kind of you to offer.
And thanks to all for your kind words.
          Mick

Wolfman,seems to me like you have been there and done that ,if so good luck to you.     Mick

Mick in the one year I've known you you have lost motorcycles, tobacco, your left hand, your Dad. Thats too much for anyone to handle in that short a time period. It makes perfectly good sense that alchohol has become your best friend. You cant control your drinking because you are in full flight from reality. For years alchohol was my best friend and one day it turned on me just like it has with you. You are gonna have to find another best friend just like I did. If you really can quit without help thats great, but if you dont replace the alchohol with something positive in your life you are going to become one bitter, angry SOB that no one wants to be around. What you experienced yesterday is referred to as a moment of clarity, every alchoholic has them at some point in their drinking career. Its a warning sign. You handled it well, at that point in time you were completely honest with yourself. Admitting to the world you are an alchoholic took complete honesty and a 5 gallon bucket of balls. You completed the first and most important step to recovery. Now you need to replace your old friend Jack Barleycorn with a more positive productive friend which will turn you into a fully functioning recovering alchoholic people will enjoy being around. Mick you are a highly intelligent individual, you have proved that. Most alchoholics are above average intelligence. You have some important decisions to make regarding your life, the key to your happiness lies in you becoming perfectly honest with yourself. Thats extremely hard for an alchoholic to do. We have lived in our own little dreamland for many many years and it becomes hard to distinguish reality. Its safe in our little dreamland until one day we discover that Jack Barleycorn has destroyed our body, our mind and our life. You've had your moment of clarity now you have important decisions to make. For the next several months your life is gonna be one hell of an emotional roller coaster ride. Be completely honest with yourself and you will make the right decision. Always remember this, if you need help, help is always available. I know that for a fact because my name is Mike S. and I'm an alchoholic.

first 2 days were a piece of cake, this evening I have sweat pouring off me like a gallon a minute,well it feels that way,
I'm drinking water with a dash of Rose's lime juice,you know us limeys must have our lime juice to prevent scurvy. I have had very little sleep. I think I will hit the shower and go to bed and try again,goodnight chaps.

Here's hoping you made it through. If not, pick it up and start again. A couple of suggestions for sleeping. If you can't fall asleep, get up out of bed and do something productive. By "can't" anything more than 1/2 hour of trying to fall asleep is where I set my limit. The mind is an amazing thing, and it can think a million miles an hour even when it's tired. But it can be trained to sleep when you go to bed. Just remember the three S's for being in bed, Sleep, Sex or Sick. Don't read, toss and turn, or mull over the day's or your life's event's. You may get really tired during the ay for a while but this will only last a couple of days - no naps.

Mick..you might be a bit curt off and on over the next few..Keep busy and we are all with you; alcholol is a tough fight, I think yuo are tougher.  

This helps me sleep,holding my breath and counting to 60. Don't force yourself .Do it repeatedly.Like a carb adjustment.You might be suprised.