My father-in-law was a firefighter for most of his working life. He helped set up the local Rescue Unit many years ago. He certified in SCUBA, later becoming the instructor. He quit diving after he found a badly decomposed child's body which came apart when he tried to remove it. He then became a certified electrician and wired up fire trucks and new fire halls.

Good responses, thanks!

I've seen what 1st responders go through. I've shot enough blood and guts during my 15 years shooting news, and a lot of it wasn't pretty. For the most part I'm able to keep a cool head, remain calm and block out everything, but still, shooting from the sidelines is a lot different than being in the middle of it. Whenever we see the scene of a fatal and the cops may be cracking little jokes, that's gallows humor. It's the way some of them deal with it.

My Dad was a NYC Police Officer and told me a story about the first fatal he'd been called to; a guy either fell or jumped from the roof of a building and landed on one of those big iron picket fence type things. Yeah, nasty stuff.

I found a hospital that offers the 120 hour certification course. Only one day falls on my work day. I'll have to figure some way around it. Taking my NRA RSO courses in January also. Got my pistol safety certification already, but that was an easy one.

Must keep going forward. Being unhappy with my job and not doing anything about it is a waste of time.