Ok.....
Question: What is needed to do anything, even to think?
A: Energy
Question: What happens when I run out of energy?
A: I die. I no longer have the capacity to think or achieve my wants and needs.
Question: What was needed to start/create all that your mind thinks and eyes see Jog?
A: Energy, a source of power, be it a BIG bang, or intelligent design, or?
Question: Where/what was the original source, of energy, elements, that created all that we see and know?
A: It was from something that was able to create its own, or self sustaining. All it needs, and wants, it already has the capacity to achieve it......
I look for that source and tap into it, and then I get the benefits of self sustainability, up to a certain point, if I stay connected to it.
As designed, I alone do not have the real capacity to be self sustaining, but I have the right receptacle if I choose to avail myself to that source.

I am like a mini solar system, I have all sorts of planets and stars that revolve around me.
I have influence, but no control over them.
However, my little solar system, is part of a greater solar system, more massive than my ability to discern or grasp, yet, I know its fact, only because of the influences it has over me, which I can tell deeply in my being (soul).
It fills the voids, and answers the unknown, to me.
Even more confused than ever now JOG