I got t-boned by a 4x4 truck 3 years ago...
That hurt an unimaginable amount...
Not my first crash...
I've been in 2 bicycle crashes with cars, and 2 solo street bike crashes,... along with numerous dirt riding crashes, and this one...
I was flinchy,.. even in my car, for 6 months to a year after...
Several occasions... I became literally paralyzed, while trying to back up out of a parking place, at the supermarket... in my car...
A hard hit... makes you realize how very vulnerable you are at any moment...
For about a year... my eyes flinched, every time I turned left... in a car or on a bike... even as a passenger... (I would see a kind of strobe light flashing)...
I never stopped riding... but I had to force myself to continue...
Eventually, the memory and the fear fades...(the illusion of personal immortality returns)...
..but, the reality that you can buy it, at any time, becomes very slightly clearer...
You can buy it in the shower, or on the toilet... or mowing the lawn, or fixing the roof...
..and eventually you will...
Life is a one way ride... you will die...
I'm not at all comfortable with that... but, I get closer every time I get a taste...
Life is so short, no matter how careful you are...
I feel so blessed to have gotten this far, when so many don't...
But I'm not yet comfortable with the big sleep...
I'm also not comfortable with with living in a germ free, rubber room, eating only oatmeal...
It's all about balance...
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I started giving to St.Judes... hoping for some karmic balance...
So many children suffering more than I can imagine...
I have a good ways to go, before I reach balance...
I say... don't think a motorcycle will be the death of you...
Death will choose it's own way...
You choose how you live... if you feel you need to quit riding, there's no shame in that either...
I will never jump out of a plane... (just don't sound fun to me)...
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